don'tchakno*

 in snippets he seems so normal 

thousands of pictures and i can 

convince myself he led a normal 

life - like all young men do: except 

                              he hasn't - inbetweenthesnippets 

                    is where he exists: my arms are proof 

          teethmarks, nail marks. clumps of hair 

taken off and part of me wants to erase 

                    it all and part of me is in awe 

                                             how - one moment

                              it has all gone so fast


*don't cha kno: Bobby's World by Howie Mandel