on speed dating

How do I let any one in
If I don't even let my
Self in? What is proper

Protocol in polite society?

"Hello my name is - I am a survivor of child hood sexual molestation
And rape. Would you like to get a sandwich?"

I wonder the responses

The pity, the shame, the backing away, the fear the absolute fear

I am hard enough to like

How much harder will it

Be - as the words escape me

And the tears - I am about

To have a river of my own