Sua Sponte

a reduction in life 
born we grow 
in thought 
we learn to think about thinking 
at least those of us 
who rise above 
the just doing good 
the move from 
quantifiable to what makes us qualifiable 
so many stay at the numerical 
others decide 
to aim a little higher 
today i sit and stare at the back of a chair 
on it, it reads special forces, airborne, ranger 
ranks that make for good stories if anyone cares to listen 
instead the man, what's left of him, eats in silence bombarded by talk 
of how money was borrowed, saved, and the feelings that come along with 
the quantifiable of lending: how needed money for school is given but not for 
what was wanted and he sat and made no comments just ate and listened to 
the absurdity of his nurse maid - i wanted to rescue him, pull back his chair 
 ask about his life, his lessons, how he was 
not how is now 
reduced to a chair