I think a lot about redemption
And had I learned it long
Ago - I would be a much
Different soul - yesterday
The film I watched spoke
Of sound in silence: how
He searched for it - how
She always had it: it had
Been like that for me: silence
Unbearable silence but I
Had no God, we had no
God. Then like him there
Was no silence: screaming
And crying - how did two
Small souls make such
Noise: there was no silence
And there was no hearing
and I remember being the
other woman in the film:
In my youth: so when you
Asked how could she:
Didn’t, she love him? I
So wanted to answer: same
Way I did, same way you
Did but I didn’t want the
Fight, the endless chunk
Of emotions that spill out
Of why you did what you
Did and split us and why I
Did what I did splitting
A version of my youth
That was wholly mine:
I had no God: only sounds
In moments that spilled
Out as lust and search: so
I just wanted to sit with
Your Legs over mine: pray
You had heard the sound
In the silence -
