everywhere i turn there's the reminder
of what i can't give. when young i killed
them all. there is no other way to write
it - day after pills i popped like candy
i am sure one was yours, beloved, i am
sure two were my ex's - i repaid those
odd as the genetics are they are still mine
to keep you. is wrong. very wrong. as
wrong as what i did when i was young
stay if you want but i cannot ask or do
anything that may keep you. your future
is not mine to give or to keep - our next
life perhaps will be better or perhaps you
will stay - regardless i will love you now
in this moment
