pause

having done the married thing
when i was young and naive i
cannot judge but i can answer

when i thought of the third party
i blamed her for not being there
for him and i was - i was until

i wasn't and he was back with
her. it was never me. i was a short
stop in between. i still have a pic

of him and me sitting on a large
army vehicle. i am not proud of
it but i cannot destroy it either

one day when my daughter is older
and she encounters a man who is
already taken - i will pull out

the picture and tell her about him
and ask her - does she really want
to put her life on pause for that

is all we were - perhaps that is all we needed to be