scaffolding relationships

perhaps it is the ladder
         that compels me: i must,
like all ladders, or at
         least go around and never
under: under causes all
         sorts of bad luck. so i
have a system: first me
         then see if there is a new
bit i can take from the man
         across the ocean to learn
from or at least lean to

         these words that are
                  abandoned at the end
                           of the verse leave me
                                    at odds with the world
                           then there this existence
                  of past relationships of new
         relationships as they reform

from the old - yes the ladder in all its platforms