to pablo neruda

it takes stones to even ask
          such questions: sixteen yrs
                    ago i would have fallen to
                              my knees in happiness: eight
                                        years ago i would have smiled
                                                  and explained meter and verse
                                        four years ago btwn feedings
                              i would've been content to read
                    a poem or two: today all i could
          do is cry for the loss of such hope
neruda (if present) would've written:

          it is
                    tears
                              that
                                        carve
                                                   out
                                                             love