in my defense I have no defense
in my want of ambition and me
I again chose the me over an us
it is easier to advance than to
love: easier to go than to stop
to view the moment for what it is
just another
absurd moment in my life: let's
take the army and the moment he
said marry me: I chose me: bad
yet another
take the moment at the lake and
the sun was setting and the thrill
was ohh so more important: than
the growth he so longed forth: bad
yet another
absurd moment in my life: when
he entered the door and I was still
in my waitress uniform and with no
shame I stripped and he, poor he
aroused & angered I threw him out: bad
yet another:
I wanted what I wanted and he did
not deliver did not matter that he
did not understand how: I wanted
what I wanted at the cost of his blood: very, very bad
and then yesterday
I got what I wanted but it was not
so great: the silence needed blurred
the passion: impeded our motions
and his recklessness put fear in me
that my ambitions were vulnerable
It has finally come to the attention of my soul that my propositional truth in me is false
